I’ve decided to start documenting my experiences every day. I’m going to try my best to write down everything that happens to me that day. Everything I did. I want to be as honest and transparent as possible.
My purpose is to record me and Sue’s life so that we will never forget the amazing and wonderful things that we do. This is both a personal and public venture. I hope that this journal can also serve as some inspiration to those who need to be inspired, as I will take deliberation to talk about things we’ve learned, or thought about, or discovered.
I’m going to try and focus on writing about just one day at a time, as I am also trying to live my life with a “one day at a time” mentality, trusting that God will provide exactly what we need for that day, and know that the future is in His hands and that there is nothing to worry about.
I didn’t have to go to work today since I called out sick the evening before. My boss had come into the house I work at and once she saw me and heard my raspy, horrendous voice she immediately sent me home. I was glad to go home, and I was glad to have today off. I needed it. I’ve been really sick with some kind of cold. Sue has been taking really good care of me though. She’s got me drinking all kinds of elixirs and potions. I’ve taken enough echinacea in the past few days for an elephant.
Actually it’s worked though! I can feel my white blood cells activating and attacking the virus. I can also feel the sinuses behind my eyes swelling like water balloons. We’re not the kind of people who waste money on Kleenex tissues either. We just use toilet paper, like a poor person, to blow our nose.
Sue and I drove to Pressed Cafe today so that she could work on her homework. We ordered a 12oz decaf coffee to share. We usually share what we order when we go out. It cost WAY less money and actually we both enjoy it. We eat or drink slow and take our time to enjoy what we have. Plus it allows us to go out on more dates!
I prayed that God would take away my fear today. I’ve been praying that every day lately, as soon as I can remember in the morning. I don’t want to live with fear holding me back from dreaming and doing the things that I want to do. I see Sue live her life with no fear of failure or insecurity and it makes me want to be the same way. She really is an amazing girl.
This afternoon I went over to my parent’s house because they are both gone and my dad asked me if I could let their dog outside. I let Annabelle out and she sniffed around the yard for a while. When I went back inside I saw that my dad had a bunch of old photographs strewn about the living room floor. I found some pictures of him as a kid. He looks just like me. There were also some pictures of my grandpa. He died a few years ago. I liked seeing pictures of him looking young and healthy and happy. We all remember him as a good man. My dad had an envelope labeled “Paul & Sue.” Inside were pictures that he took of our wedding. I went through them one by one squatting on the floor till my legs were almost numb. Then I left.
I secretly had like four bowls of cereal today. Then when Sue came back from class she asked if I was hungry and I didn’t want her to know that I had already hoarked down a bunch of sugary carbs so I told her “I could eat.” Then she made me a huge burrito with the free burnt chicken we get from Yang’s Teriyaki. I ate the entire thing.
Later we went over to Sue’s sister Amy’s house. Amy wasn’t home yet so Sue and I waited for her in the living room. When Amy got there she told us about her baby Amadeo’s most recent check-up. She said he’s doing great. Apparently he’s a little short for a baby.
I had a good day today. I’m glad that the sun is out again. The rainy season is ending.